Friday, May 6, 2011

An Answer.... May 6, 2011

I arrived at the Doctor's office today at 8:20 and sat with my two sweet boys while waiting to go back and see Dr. Murphy. There were beautifully pregnant women all around and I made myself smile at them and be happy about the little ones in their bellies - Sometimes making your mind lie to yourself can trick you into really feeling that way...

I got a few compliments about how cute and sweet my boys are...it warmed my heart and hearing it from strangers made it click in my head - I AM BLESSED! Though it's sad and tough now, I am blessed. Should God not give us anymore children, I can be satisfied in the amazing little men he has already entrusted me with!

We were called back

Parker told me he and Hunter were doctors and they used a measuring tape to give me a check up with while we waited in room #6.  "You measure 56 and you won't need a cast!" He was so serious and concerned that it made me laugh and lighten up. Dr. Murphy came in and the boys gave her a check up, too. So sweet of her to play along!

My levels had dropped from 216 to 150 within 48 hours and I am having what seems like a normal period. I am relieved to hear that I can just relax at home with my boys and let this happen naturally - no procedure or medicines needed. And she was very reassuring that we could try again in a few months.

While this experience was not a pleasant one, and still hurts deeply, it is part of my story. It is part of His plan. Nothing happens to me that does not first pass by His throne....

3 comments:

  1. I'm glad things can happen naturally for you. I know it doesn't make anything really easier but I'm glad for you that you didn't have ti have a procedure done. somehow this fits into His plan even though we have no idea why. praying you feel some comfort.

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  2. oh, aud. i'm so sorry. love you & will be in prayer for you.

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  3. 'that does not pass by His throne'
    i like that aud!

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